went ahead and ordered rog ally x after spending few days thinking about it, i can deal with the lack of trackpads, joystick works good enough to control the cursor in desktop mode and i don't really use the trackpads much in games tbh (well okay maybe i'll miss it a bit for ffxiv, but i'll manage lol)
i just wanted something with more power and with large battery, rog ally x provides both
first thing i'll do when it arrives? get rid of windows, it's awful