URGENT!! 
please help a starving #transWoman struggling with debt & parental #abuse. she hasn't met the last 2 month's goals & is barely hanging onto life because she can't afford to eat.
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When you're frustrated by everything so you decide to rearrange your desk and you can't even figure that out.
In just a constant state of "hold mode" today.
Greater #MentalHealth understanding is good, but it can only go so far without mental health *understanding*
Hence you should read 'Psycho-Logical', all about the science of mental health, by Dean Burnett
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What can you do with your eco-anxiety?
Here some tips and context:
Hip update…
...kind of...
I start writing this post 5 days before the scheduled call from the surgeon. I got the puncture done 8 days ago. And the surgeon will call me in 5 days (as I write this). Unfortunately... It's a 15:00 call, so I'll have the whole day to be anxious about it. As I'm already anxious about it now.
I mean, I know I need a surgery. I know that hip bowl (or is it a cup?) needs to be placed in the right position again. So my leg can stop "wobbling", so it can stop tingling, […]
It's not Me, It's You
Collapse-awareness: an incurable case of existential dread
I'm incurable.
I've been to psychologists and while the venting seems to help, nothing really cures me from my constant dread. I'm not a mental health expert, but I believe psychologists are simply not equipped to deal with existential anxiety.
Worried about nothing in general? Cognitive behavioural therapy can help.
Suffer from stage fright? There's a pill for that.
Crippled by depression? It could be caused by an chemical imbalance in your brain.
Under normal circumstances, psychologists have methods for dealing with these issues. They are temporary or internal - caused by one's own brain. I.e. a "me" problem.
But what if the source of my dread is permanent and external. In other words, my brain is not the problem. My brain is simply observing facts. How do you cure reality?
Whether you're toiling in a concentration camp, trapped in the sunken Kursk submarine, or simply observing the burning world, there is no cure for reality. Most mainstream psychologists aren't equipped or experienced enough to deal with these things. Also, many collapse-aware don't know how to broach the subject.
The best most professionals can do is listen and prescribe a mind-numbing agent. (I still can't decide whether anti-anxiety meds are a good or bad thing to use in this situation.)
However, there is a branch of psychology dedicated to those in hospice. This is the closest the profession comes to being capable of dealing with collapse-awareness. If you're experiencing existential dread, I believe a professional must attack the anxiety from this angle.
The collapse-aware have unique needs from psychologists. They don't need someone to tell them "it's going to be alright". So what do we need?
For some, that's what religion is for. Religion makes death and the unknown palatable. It also gives the illusion that something is in control and that this chaos is by design. I understand the appeal.
Realistically, most collapse-aware are evidence based thinkers and won't accept religion. At least not in the traditional sense.
Side note: I have tailored my views on religion beyond belief vs disbelief. First of all, I don't follow any organized religion. Rather, I view the concept of god as a metaphor for the beauty and mystery of the world. My 'religion' is about doing, not talking, symbolizing or worshipping. In fact, if there were a god entity, I believe that entity would judge people by what they do with their lives, not by whether they believe in him or visit a designated building weekly. I once created a set of rules for my own 'religion'. One day I'll share more. Anyway, back to the program...
If you happen to find the right collapse-aware psychologist, here's what they should provide:
Validate and normalize your feelings
Encourage you to talk and explore fears
Create relaxation techniques
Help you create meaning from your life, however long it may be
Find acceptance and peace with the inevitable
Identify areas of personal control
Good luck finding one though. It takes extra effort, and sometimes you must cycle through a few to find the someone suitable. As many of you know, there are many psychologists (and people in general) who still believe this doomsday shit is overblown.
Moreover, not everyone has the funds, ability or inclination to find and work with with a psychologist. So below I've provided a few resources to help manage through the fear of collapse.
Read the full article and have a look at the video's mentioned here:
I mentioned earlier that I have this weird thing where sometimes I can't do things that I need to do. I had a period of three months where I wouldn't check my payslips, even though I needed to in case I got underpaid. I have frequent periods where I can't check my emails. This is especially if I've emailed someone I'm not close to and am expecting a reply.
As example is if I received faulty goods on Ebay. I've missed out on refunds because I send the complaint, but then I actively avoid checking for a reply.
Does anyone else experience things like this? I was looking at demand avoidance: https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/behaviour/demand-avoidance#What%20is%20demand%20avoidance
But I don't know if it's that or some weird manifestation of #anxiety. The best I can describe it is apprehension? It's hard to put a proper name to it. I get milder forms, where for instance if I need to transfer money to my savings and there's nothing stopping me, but I won't be able to do it. Then randomly I'll snap out of it and feel like I can do it. It's not procrastination or getting distracted. It's a different feeling from that.
Time for an #Introduction post. I’m a #liveaboard #sailor (www.svloka.com) and full time #nomad who is also a #creative #artist. I play #guitar, #crochet, paint (#watercolor & #acrylic), and draw #penandink. I love #yoga and use #meditation to manage my #anxiety. Got #sober in 2020.
I am a recovering #softwareengineer (#programmer) and #ITmanager. I focused a lot on #leadership & effective #communication, and I still enjoy #mentoring people on those topics. I still tinker with tech on occasion.
#Anxiety and #depression are two COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS, and I wish prescribers could tell the difference.
The easiest way to ruin my day is to schedule a phonecall or make an appointment somewhere midday.
First time posting here. Somewhat nervous about it. My social #anxiety keeps on whispering in my ear "You shouldn't do this, you'll get burned." I just try my best not to listen to it.
I'm #trans. Most of my life I've tried to convince myself I'm not but obviously it doesn't work like that. I would really love to free myself from the suffocating feeling of shame and some weird form of guilt that are attached to my identity.
This might be a start on path to healing. At least it's something.
My child and I share the anxiety feature of bedtime catastrophe churn. The convo just now at tuck in:
“Child: Hey you’re expert at this talk me out of natural disasters. Me: which ones? …we don’t have tornadoes here C: I was just going to say that… flooding? M: the channel is pretty big. C: lightning? M: very rare here. C: zombie apocalypse? M: hasn’t happened yet! Sweet dreams!”
New Fedi, new #introduction post~
Hi, I'm Eleonora! I'm a 39 year old American trans woman living in the UK! I'm an ADHD, autistic individual who identifies as polyamorous, sapphic, and demi-ace. If the entity reading this knows me from elsewhere, then welcome back! I hope we can be friends and have fun together! 
This fedi blog is mostly a personal reflection of myself, my interests, my mental health struggles, trans rights advocacy, and a place where I can be cute and flourish. I gently ask that anyone who follows me or interacts with me be 18 years of age or older, as I can and will post NSFW content. All follower requests will be vibe-checked for the sake of my/my friends' safety. Basically, just be 18 or older, not have an empty biio, and respect others and I'll likely accept it! 
My topics and interests include:
- Anime
- Sapphic/lesbian content (memes, etc)
- Mecha (Gundam, Gunbuster, Franxx, etc)
- Retro console gaming and related technology
- Posting about my girlfriends (of which I currently have two)
- Work regarding my charity
- Girls
- Mental health (both personal and advocacy for)
- Final Fantasy XIV (FFXIV)
- Monster Hunter (the new title is Wilds. HMU?)
- Old digital/analog technology
- LGBTQIA+ culture
- Being a trans mom
Due to some interactions on my previous fedi, I have to set some boundaries (I'm in my villain arc, I guess?)
- I am demi-asexual. That means do not heavily flirt with me or approach me sexually without asking for consent! If unsure, ask. It's okay to, I promise.
- Do not be weird to my girlfriends or overstep my polycule boundaries, please. I don't like blocking entities.
- Anything that happened in the past (iykyk), stays in the past for everyone's benefit. I shouldn't have to even say this, but I do.
- I am autistic and I struggle with RSD; please don't approach me in vague terms. It's important to communicate with me bluntly and concisely, because I am dense.
I'll add more here as I go, so expect edit notifications XD But thanks so much for reading! Have a wonderful day!
#noraposting #autism #adhd #makingfriends #anxiety #transfem #trans #sapphic #retro #mecha #ffxiv #monsterhunter
'The more energy one needs to use to relieve anxiety, the less there is for creativity and joy.'
Yup. This makes sense to me! 
From Cyndi Saurez's
'The Power Manual'
Crikey, do I need to pack sunscreen? It will be 70F each day, I probably will! It’s March, I don’t need sunscreen. Except maybe I will in Southern California?
