Mx. Luna Corbden<p>I've been trying to figure out why I've been so tired lately. I had a long run of having enough energy to keep up, over the move and in the aftermath adjusting to life in the RV. This new tired is a little different, more sleepy and lethargic, not wanting to move or do anything, running out of battery after only a few minutes of effort. I feel far less stress and ongoing anxiety, just lethargy, and pain but only if I push it. My situation is stable now but won't be for long if I can't keep up.</p><p>I'm also finding I have less stomach for the trauma writing and research I'm usually involved in. Today I'm doing some editing on the Sexcommunicated appendix, relatively tame stuff considering that I read and watch about cults and have seen and experienced some horrific shit, and it's just, hard to get through even a couple of paragraphs even just about the effects on minors of LDS bishop interviews.</p><p>I'm not saying I want to go back to where I was in deep anxiety constantly, processing fresh ongoing personal traumas at a mile a minute, but I do think there are withdrawal effects from cortisol and whatever other stress hormones I was hooked on. I like not being on that shit, but do rather hate the adjustment. I hope it passes eventually. I was patient but it's been a week of this new state now, and entropy is creating new problems that need to be solved.</p><p>And I'm not sure what to do about not having the stomach for doing the reading I need to write and edit about trauma, in order to stop it happening to other people. It will probably pass. But I guess when I was feeling a certain baseline of my own stress feelings, and it's gone, then reading about it is... well it's just different.</p><p>I don't have as much stomach for horror these days, either. For many years deep in my Dark Sojourn that was the only kind of movie I could watch. Horror and documentaries about cults.</p><p><a href="https://defcon.social/tags/DarkSojourn" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>DarkSojourn</span></a> <a href="https://defcon.social/tags/Recovery2025" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Recovery2025</span></a> <a href="https://defcon.social/tags/MECFS" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MECFS</span></a></p>