#ScribesAndMakers 3/18 What would your best creative life look like if you stretch beyond realistic, but still keep it plausible?

Hahaha, oh, I wish I could have beyond be plausible. Literally just happened. Nearly a decade of #burnout #freeze had flattened writing. I barely did any.

Some healing cleared it. I spent days in #hyperfocus then couldn’t sleep. A few days of tired mush, and back to #fatigue now with some writing. So idk, cos not that.

Ich glaube ich habe ein Buch geschrieben. Also nicht ganz. Ein erster Entwurf.
Aber ich glaube es ist gut. Wie veröffentlicht man sowas?
#adhs #hyperfocus

Anyone who says hyperfocus is a superpower can't fathom how destructive it is to not be able to control your focus. People get how bad not having focus is, but the opposite is ALSO AWFUL!

I got hit with it just before we were supposed to go to sleep and ended up moving bedtime to 5am because I could not break the focus even with help.

Now I am exhausted, aching head to toe, and need to find a way to be able to work with mental batteries on savings mode.

5:30pm

me: I wonder why I feel so exhausted and headachy

also me: *has had 15 saltines and a glass of water since breakfast*

So anyway, #ADHD #hyperfocus is fun, y'all should go hydrate and have some food

//: UnMooding //

https://guardianrecords.bandcamp.com/?from=search&search_item_id=3895071334&search_item_type=b&search_match_part=%3F&search_page_id=4116664197&search_page_no=1&search_rank=1&search_sig=88444e0beb2320cbbf9859201c375d68

Cities Skylines 2 is fun. Unfortunately, I do lose all track of time and all interest in taking care of myself.

Something to be wary of next time I start that game.

Now available on YouTube, an #OnlineAutscape2025 “More Autistic Joy” presentation:

On the 7th of February at 20:00 GMT/UTC, Jorik Mol, “professionally autistic”, presented “Now I wanna think about all the good times – The joys of Breaking the Boundaries”.

Watch now at: https://youtu.be/88-EGSq_dmg

Slides with clickable read-along links: https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1qEl3c4O8bVsB-oJ9lhLi-PCbRkV6Fbq6zZtx29cCOjk/edit#slide=id.g32b2dc19ab3_0_274

“Jorik's first book of 2025 is Breaking the Boundaries, describing his experiences as a lived experience mentor of autistic higher education students. These stories highlight the particular joys of being neuroqueer and finding one's community, gender joy, the joy of art, the joy of hyperfocus and the joy of fighting the good fight.”

I think I've gone through THE most intense hyperfocus episode ever. You saw me here talking about my work on @justcrosspost and it probably sounded cool that I'm working on a new project, but...

...read on if you're curious to know how a #hyperfocus episode can look like for an #ADHD person

I have the god-given persistence of a damn anime protagonist and that's the only way I have gotten this far getting this damn TrueNAS NAS useful.

After a week of searching questions on forums, half of them look like some form of:

"I'm newish to network management. How do I get this [app/storage/feature] working?"

"Why do you want that? It's not best practice. You should Xilp++ instead"

"So if I Xilp I can get this working?"

"Yes. Xilp++. Ignore anyone who mentions classic Xilp. They're heathens who will burn."

"How do I Xilp? What is Xilp?"

"Xilp++, heathen"

"How do I Xilp++? I just want [app/storage/feature]"

"I can't explain everything for you. Do your own investigation."

Most threads never make it to the end but boy do a bunch of them start like that.

No, ladies, gents, and other folx, I acknoweldge that I can do a lot. I'm stupid AF about this stuff though.

But I am #ActuallyADHD and by God I'm gonna #hyperfocus my way towards a functional home built NAS or I'm gonna self immolate and fly through the sky like the goddam Human Torch,

Today I got SyncThing working. Writing notes to myself now about how to keep it working/expand it in the future.

Tomorrow? Plex.

After that? No. Don't talk to me.

Getting an #Xbox controller to connect to #SteamDeck to connect to a 3rd party dock to connect to this Hotel TV has made me feel like my level of determination sometimes borders on obsession.

Lol @AllKeysGDS knows that look where i get real quiet and block out the world and just start troubleshooting.

Wait... shit... is that #hyperfocus?
being #ActuallyADHD sure is... something

Puttered in plants yesterday. By which I mean I *thought* I was puttering:

•getting basil and spearmint in the ground
•sticking date and redbud seeds in a starter tray, and
•watering all the things.

Yeah, I was not puttering. I was outright gardening for nearly 3 hours because #ADHD #hyperfocus

Post- #RecentCovid body is letting me know very clearly today that I overdid it. I'm generally tired, & left inguinal ligament is HIGHLY irritated.

*SIGH*

I really should not be left #unattended.

Hmm, this is an interesting project my brain is stuck on this morning. I can justify the expense and it all makes sense and....

Oh, that's right. It's also probably the least important item on my list. And one of the safest and easiest for me to plan out.

Meanwhile, I'm avoiding the higher priority, more difficult projects.

Just saw a picture of a fried dumpling and was consumed (ha) with a hyperfocal desire To Know All Of Dumplings and make them at home

But I'm still perfecting the previous #hyperfocus, spaghetti. And I've made recent great strides in a long term plan to become King of #Pizza (protip: heavy on the gluten, lighter on the cheese)

Fortunately it's a three day weekend so I can do it all! But I need to buckle down and watch 14 hours of youtube dumpling tutorials. Plus work on #GeometricAlgebra

Good morning from #Pasadena where it will be & 17°c (63°F) today. Happy New Year to all.

An old photo from age 24 when I took a road trip from the Great Lakes to California and back. Here I am in Santa Cruz with my first dog as an adult, Sandy who travelled with me many times, including Europe.

Spent much of the holidays in #HyperFocus mode, scanning thousands of my old photos in order to make more room for storage. So I lost track of the holidays and of time itself.

Time for less stuff around! And with my new scanner it’s the best time to do it.

I’m amazed in just how many photos I have taken in my life. I haven’t yet centralized them all so I’m not sure how many. Currently I’m at 104k and still counting. In my mind everything is a picture. Even words I search for in my mind often surface as their picture. I am a man with a dog and a camera.

Good morning fr #Pasadena. Omg! Where have I been the last 5 days?! #HyperFocus has a way of making time fly, especially if I’m busy gardening and on top of that a multi-day storm is said to be coming. But hyper focus is also confusing

Winter has more or less arrived for us it looks like. We had a good amount of rain yesterday and despite day 2-3 of the storm being revised to day 4 is still tentatively scheduled.

Today, I’d hoped to continue on (re-)potting plants and succulent cuttings but I must get more pots & potting soil first.

Here is a plant that fell over when branches pruned off the big tree fell on it. For potted plants, especially bushy ones, I now use tri/quad-pod support I make out of ribs from #DatePalm fronds. Works incredibly well at preventing various plants from toppling so far! Here, I’m using them to straighten a #EuphorbiaGrantii aka #AfricanMilkBush, a native from #EastAfrica

Today & 18°c (64°F) though it’s atm.