what´s Martial Arts for me - ..in this i could not go by usual normal path.
25 years ago i started from learning how to break. break an arm in three places with one easy move. i learned the mechanics.
now i learn how to not break. to stop just on the edge.
my first teacher wore a white belt. he was cool.
He said "belts are commercial, you pay - you get".
i never went for the belts. never had money or wish.
for me the first grade started from 1 dan.
I had no idea that in aikido there are lower ranks.
i thought colourful belts are for karate kids to stay motivated.
how surprised i was to find out. a lot later, suddenly.
i started with one style, continued with another one. with lots of other things in between.
mixed with lifting, calisthenics, arm balancing, running, Buddhistic and yoga philosophy.
some things took long, left "scars", i´d like to get back.
some things passed casually, just to check how it feels.
aikido, kickboxing, capoeira, bujinkan were the main. and kung fu - in the very beginning.
my basics were aikido yoshinkan for techniques and kung fu for the kicks and punches.
and now when they tell me - go to basics, i don´t know where to go to. my basics happened 25 years ago with the disciplines which i don´t practice anymore.
and in each discipline they think their way is the best.
i saw so many that i don´t care the basics and don´t have it solid.
all my "basics" are broken.
i don´t understand simple things anymore.
to some things i go back again and again, as stages of time.
but something stays permanent.
wild chaotic mix of styles and disciplines..
often my skills shatter into hundreds of shards... nothing works..
but sometimes, just sometimes.. it goes as smooth like a hypnotic dance.
depends from a partner.
and then it feels beautiful.. almost like magic.. magnetic..
the moment.
pure stay in the moment...
Watched the first episode of Hulu's series "Interior Chinatown," and really enjoyed it.
ok I've got some chuff to spark this. This Monkey King series is a strange, funny, playful, absurd long arc story that I and a few others will be filling some couch time with. 
